I have a lot on my mind lately and it's hard to express everything I feel sometimes but the one thing that gives me pure enjoyment is my children and taking photos of them being themselves. When the world is chaos around me they keep me grounded. When I feel like falling they pull me back up. When I feel like letting go and quitting they remind me to keep going. I don't know where I would be without them. They are my strength them and god of course. I do have many family members who are amazing and there for me through everything and a great life to be thankful for and my husband does work hard to provide for us for whatever we need and want. I just have a lot in my head from life and stress and goals I want to accomplish. I want to work on our house but we have to get a loan for that, I want to upgrade to a newer suv but want to pay off pills first, I want to sell our house next year and get a newer one but that takes time, I want to pay off bills and save but something always pops up, I want to be organized in everything I do but sometimes I'm a mess, I want to have Adelyn potty trained 100% in every way lol by August since Colton starts Kindergarten but I know they do it when they are ready and interested not when they pushed are expected to do it by 2 years old.. think about 2 year olds are still babies why push it.. but still, I want to be able to teach Colton and help him excel in school, but I need more patience. I put a lot on myself to accomplish many things when I know I'm only one person and can't expect to do it all in a day. I just need to relax and worry about the big things and see the big picture and what god can do for me not everything I can do for myself. If I need to improve myself I need to seek him and when things are going by just give all my worry to him instead of on my shoulders and in my mind. When I fight with my husband and think it's the end of the world I need to realize what I need to work on and move on. I need to stop being a perfectionist and more a realistic and know the world isn't fairytales and happy ending but a lot of bumps and bruises a long the way. I may not be the best photographer, mom, wife, cook, or friend. I may not have a million dollar house or car but at the end of the day I have what god thinks I need and deserves at this time.. why can't I see it yet.. maybe in time and opening up to the few that care online and irl the very few that come near and dear to my heart and know to not take everything I say to heart and to love me for me because I'm sarcastic, witty, blunt, random, and my shyness may come off as stuck up but in the end I am me and happy I have those who see me through everything and I can confide in about these things and in depth.... I can go there and not say a word and feel at peace when things are bad or go there and pour my heart and she and my dad will listen and won't say one judgemental thing and sometimes nothing at all they just listen... I love that and I love them!!
I'm borrowing this from Mandy from www.asortafairytaleblog.com It really hit home and how I need to remember when I take things the wrong way and when others do and just to change how I preceive things and I only hope others could with me in the past, present, and future!
And Nothing Shall Offend Them
When we believe or say we have been offended, we usually mean we feel insulted, mistreated, snubbed, or disrespected. And certainly clumsy, embarrassing, unprincipled, and mean-spirited things do occur in our interactions with other people that would allow us to take offense. However, it ultimately is impossible for another person to offend you or to offend me. Indeed, believing that another person offended us is fundamentally false. To be offended is a choice we make; it is not a condition inflicted or imposed upon us by someone or something else.
You and I cannot control the intentions or behavior of other people. However, we do determine how we will act. Please remember that you and I are agents endowed with moral agency, and we can choose not to be offended.
One of the greatest indicators of our own spiritual maturity is revealed in how we respond to the weaknesses, the inexperience, and the potentially offensive actions of others. A thing, an event, or an expression may be offensive, but you and I can choose not to be offended—and to say with Pahoran, “it mattereth not.”
Through the strengthening power of the Atonement of Jesus Christ, you and I can be blessed to avoid and triumph over offense. “Great peace have they which love thy law: and nothing shall offend them” (Psalm 119:165).
FINALLY PHOTOS ;-)---
Just a simple b/w. The first one shows the blues and the black and white makes it pop especially the eyes!